subway souls
'fact should never get in the way of good fiction'
- Billy Bugle
Coming soon - Podcast and paperback trilogy
They called it 'That' Street
When no sign could be found
Just this grumpy old house
That shiny tower blocks surround.
There was a time when there was nothing at all, except a grumpy house.
You would wobble on the cobbles if you were ever invited to explore its unusual splendour. Which was rare.
It kept itself to itself. Even as the big shiny skyscrapers sprung from the ground – all around.
Protected in it’s little space – for some reason.
And this reason will only reveal itself in the last chapter of the third book of the 333 That Street Trilogy.
Yes you will have to wait that long.
Even longer as the trilogy hasn’t even been written yet.
Maybe ‘the reason’ hasn’t been invented yet.
Maybe it’s a secret even from the author.
Maybe it isn’t.
In the mean time here’s some snapshots and character introduction...
Coming soon - Podcast
There's not enough time to believe everything you hear.
If you can hear it.
Through the chaos.
Let alone translate it.
Through the tangled vowels.
Have you got one of those heads that never shuts up? Chatter chatter chatter chatter? Yeah me too.
There isn’t even any form of organized system in there?
It’s just screaming in languages that don’t even exist; using words that even Shakespeare, Dickens and Dr Seuss considered too ridiculous for humans.
If you filled a bag with all the words that are presently being screamed chaotically throughout my mind you would be hard pressed to find any that rhyme,
any that could be used in the presence of your nearest and dearest,
and definitely nothing of any useful factual substance.
Even a room full of monkeys with typewriters wouldn’t take the job on.
Of course, you know as well as I do that in amongst the chaos,
from time to time,
an occasional amusing moment occurs, a rare clearing of the ether allowing some creative opportunity to reveal itself.
Generally occurring at very inappropriate moments with out a doubt, laughing or screeching when you shouldn’t.
But it is what it is.
This section is dedicated to these anomalies which we all have - to varying degrees.
I assume my volume levels are stuck higher than most.
That’s not me boasting by the way – that my psychosis is bigger than yours.
You are likely feeling the your Insanity Top Trump card is just as powerful.
If you’re looking for answers or cures they won’t be found here.
Whilst everything related to ‘I hear voices’ is written with the best intentions it isn’t a study of medicine or intelligence here.
Sure these are fact based words to a degree but nevertheless devoid of any solutions.
They’re fiction to a degree too but only because that’s how the voices translate.
It is what it is.
It’s what we do with what we hear.
The search for the holy grail of a peaceful, happy and stable life is..... well....
its impossible to define let alone find a place to start or plan and route.
Which leads to procrastination and all manner of down the scale emotions.
It's best to just start you know. As you stand there now, with what you have right now, just where you are. Just start walking.
'Little more than this' is a bunch of starting points. Start from right here, whether you feel the need for a moment of brief relaxation or a time to learn something new.
Maybe, as so often in my case, a super distraction is needed most at this specific moment. To keep us out of trouble!
Blogs, podcasts, meditations and hypnosis, silly stories and poems. A lot of nothing in particular. But maybe will lead you to 'that something' particular.
There has to be more than this…
even just a tiny little more than this….. this can’t be all there is…
is this all that there is? Really?
And it isn’t, other wise it would be a boring existence.
Of course on the hardest of days of suffering, we want a quick resolve, ‘please let this be over soon’,
but on the flip-side it would be super boring to have perfected life by our mid 20s only to spend the rest of our years twiddling our thumbs.
Thankfully I’m happy there’s always a ‘little more than this’, -which is a useful buoy to cling on to during those stormy grey days of addiction and psychosis and anxiety and loneliness.
To break a downward cycle for a moment, and maybe find a spark to flicker a new upward momentum. That’s the purpose of these clips and blogs. Nothing particular or scientific or medicinal… just how we like it on the subway.
"I can't give you the meaning of life, I can barely match my socks. I can't Guru you much, but I can distract you, for a moment, until you're ready to go again."
Billy Bugle
ABOUT US
Everyone jumps on and off the subway from time to time.
Off and on at random junctions
– because mood and motion can’t make their mind up.
Bad days
Bored days
Lonely days
Off the face addicted days
A little dark or hugely lost
Giving up regardless of the cost.
There’s no solution here,
on these pages.
I’m still looking too.
But we do have a tatty armchair,
with warmth and discretion.
Somewhere only we know.
Outside the personal circle of your everyday judge-‘mental.’
If nothing else….
come break the dark momentum for a while
don’t wait for the right moment,
don’t wait until you look your best,
start from where you are with what you have.
Just jump on the subway dressed as a pirate.
Don’t think
Decide and do
and see where you end up….
and hopefully….
leave the subway
with a changed mood
and state of mind
for today at least.
